I reach for my phone, I unlock it. I open YouTube, browse for a while. I put my phone down. I read. I pick my phone up again. Scroll through social media feeds. Put it back down. Read some more. I’m resisting temptation.
But every time, my eyes land on your name, they linger just a little bit longer. I resisted yesterday, I’m resisting today, perhaps I will resist tomorrow. But temptation is like a river. Give it enough time and it will turn mountains to sand. And my resolve never was a mountain.