Puncture Wounds

Puncture Wounds

Your presence in my life is a series of puncture wounds. Brief. In-out. In-out. But deep. They bleed and bleed. And just as one begins to heal, you come and inflict another. In-out. It bleeds and bleeds.

Every time I ready my armor. I start to slowly put it on. But I’m never fast enough. In-out. Blood. Because I do not want to be. In-out. Blood. For you are a rose, and to have your beauty, I will bear your thorns. In-out. Blood.

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Expectations – Daily Prompt

I gave you a smile and expected nothing in return; I gave you a hand and expected nothing in return; I gave you my heart and expected nothing in return; I gave you everything I could and expected nothing in return. Or so I thought.

I was wrong.

When I gave you a smile, I expected it to make you smile; when I gave you a hand, I expected you to take it; when I gave you my heart, I expected you to want it; when I gave you everything, I expected you to need it.

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Heard – Daily Prompt

I heard you when you said you wanted a friend. I heard you when you said you needed some help. I heard you when you sighed, I heard when your heart broke, I heard you when your breath came hard and panic clawed at your throat. I heard you when you laughed, I heard you when you cried. I heard you when you thought there was nobody listening. I heard the inner turnings of you mind, I heard the quiet whispers of your soul. I heard you then, I hear you now, I will hear you always.

Do you hear me?

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Uncertainty – Daily Prompt

Uncertainty – Daily Prompt

When I think about you, it’s not the distance that’s the worst to bare. It’s not the silence or inconsistency or the confusion. It’s the uncertainty. It’s the endless stream of “or”s that tears me apart piece by little piece. It’s that when I ask myself why, I don’t have one answer, I have 10 and every day, a different one seems more likely. It’s that every question that I ask and every move that you make adds more possibilities, until I’m drowning.

This is what madness is. Madness is a chain of “or”s.

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Unfinished – Daily Prompt

Unfinished – Daily Prompt

It all feels so unfinished. Like God got distracted in the middle of writing our story and forgot what He was going to write, so He continued with a different story. Continued with yours, but not with mine.

Sometimes I think that I was just not good enough a character to be part of your story. Or that I was so insignificant, so irrelevant that God simply forgot I was also around. But sometimes, in the early hours of dawn – the time of dreams – I wonder if maybe… maybe God didn’t forget at all. Maybe He’s just waiting for the right time to reveal the epic plot twist that will take us all by surprise.


Together – Daily Prompt

I dream of a time when we are together;

When your arms are my refuge and your heart is my tether.

I wish for the day when I will be free,

When my heart will belong to no one but me.

The dream fights the wish, the wish fights the dream,

Two shards of myself, such conflict within;

I wonder in the end which one will win,

The mind with the wish or the heart with the dream?

Craving – Daily Prompt

Craving – Daily Prompt

Craving – noun: an intense, urgent, or abnormal desire or longing.

Sam snapped the thick volume shut. Everyone these days had apps that told them the meaning of words, but she had always preferred the solidity of a dictionary. You could flip through a dictionary and find new words. In fact, it invited you to do so. Sam had always loved words.

Logophile – noun:  a lover of words

People underestimated words and the power they had if one knew how to wield them. Power over the self and power over others. Perhaps this way is better, thought Sam for people usually crave power. 

Megalomaniac – noun: a person who has an obsessive desire for power

Sam was not a megalomaniac. She had never craved power. Perhaps that’s why it was given to her. What do I crave? She asked herself. Love?  She flipped the pages of her dictionary until she found it. There were a lot of definitions.

Love – noun: a (1) :  strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties <maternal love for a child>

No, one does not crave what one already has.

(2) :  attraction based on sexual desire :  affection and tenderness felt by lovers

Definitely not. Sam had always had no small amount of contempt for romantic and sexual relationships. She could never forget her father. And she could never forgive him.

(3):  affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests <love for his old schoolmates>

No, she did not crave this either. What good had affection ever done her?

(4): unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another

Yes, this sounded more like something she would want. Did she crave it? No, no she did not. She had enough of it that her desire was quenched. Not love. I do not crave love. What, then? Peace?

Peace – noun: (1) a state of tranquillity or quiet: as

a :  freedom from civil disturbance 

b :  a state of security or order within a community provided for by law or custom <a breach of the peace>

(2) freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions

No, not particularly. She liked peace, but she did not crave it. Love and peace. She was told these are the things most people crave. Aside from power. She craved neither. What did she crave? She did crave something. She could feel it gnawing at her. She could feel the intensity of her desire. She needed to know what it was for.

Sam started flipping back and forth through her dictionary, as she always did when she was anxious or unhappy, when she lost her grip on herself. Faster and faster, until her control returned. Her eye caught on something.

Knowledge – noun: awareness of something : the state of being aware of something

A small gasp escaped her lips. Yes! She thought. Yes, this was what she wanted. She realized now, it was what she had always wanted. She wanted to know, to understand, to be aware.

Awareness – noun: knowing and understanding a lot about what is happening in the world or around you

She craved awareness and that realization in itself brought awareness. Sam’s lips curled into a slight smile as she closed her eyes. She closed the dictionary, loosing a contented sigh.